Tuesday, October 13, 2009
♥ 9:12 AM
Wednesday, 14th October 2009
12.13a.m, on my bed;
You know it;
It's been a good few months that we have all known each other and look at how thing's have turned out?
Every body's true colours are emerging and it's causing a lot of petty unnecessary problems. Sadly,
i have fallen prey to these problems.
As a group,
one would pretty much be dragged in somehow.
I want to be strong enough to just turn a blind eye to them but it's deeming hard.
Everybody sees things their own way and when something goes amiss,
they start to talk.
Some times,
friends,
they don't know that they have crossed certain boundaries that we've set.
I mean,
if anyone were to put a toe across the line once or twice,
it's forgivable.
But to continuously step across even after countless times of being reprimanded,
that's annoying and stupid.
If people are going think that just because of one or two mistakes that a person made is not going to make me forgive them,
you're wrong because I've already forgiven but honestly,
i have not forgotten.
Facades;
People put them on all the time.
You can never truly understand how a person feels inside.
We are all living Pinocchio's' without our noses growing.
Every body has a mask on but what is really beyond that mask?
Only the person who is wearing the mask will ever know,
only i will know how i feel inside.
I think that everybody is an emotional train wreck,
especially being a teenager.
It's the choices or decisions we make that lead us to our desired outcomes.
We can't really blame anyone but ourselves for making that choice because ultimately,
we chose it.
I hate feeling weak and defeated about myself.
It's really unhealthy but i cant help it.
I just want to have a good cry and let go of things i have dwelled on for unnecessarily.
Then again, i am only human.
I've hidden too much that i don't know where to dig.
I don't know how much i can pretend anymore.
Every single day,
I am lying to myself and to every body else.
I mean, how much can one handle from the little problems that add up little by little?
XOXO;
Sorry Jasmine, i'm sucha klutz. stupid milo!
Damn, i am feeling something.
Do you feel it too?
