Asshole. MFer. I don't even think you've got balls, period. F you for leading me on. All this while, i thought it was me, i thought it was my fault or something. A little relief that i didn't do anything but now i know the reason. Such a girl for not telling me anything. You could have had the decency to tell me that you got over me and moved on with your past but no, what did you do? You left me dangling like a thread, i feel so redundant. I should have never gone against my better judgement. I knew from the beginning that its not going to be a good choice.I should have continued to ignore your online shenanigans but no, i decided to give you a chance and it was that one chance, that mistake, that blew up in my face. I thought you were different, like she said you would be (I'm not blaming you). I slowly let my guard down and felt that spark grow. You gave me all those reassurance and promises that i duped myself into believing. I really, really thought you were not like the rest, even willing to take it slow with me. I am also disappointed with myself for not being stronger like how i was before i made the choice to give you a shot. I SHOULD HAVE LISTENED. Even though i never said anything, you were always on my mind. I AM DISGUSTED WITH YOUR WEAKNESS. You stupid asshole, do you even know how much you're affecting me? At least apologize you bastard. I know that it was over before it even started and it should be easier to heal but i am hurt. There are other issues that are killing me inside and this new blow has just added to my heart ache. I AM HUMILIATED AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF. And it's not normal. I have feelings just like any other human being. I AM NOT A TOY. You thought i didn't bother, i did. You're a ball-less bitch.
Purely written from the heart;
Bianca Kallista Kimbel;
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