Wednesday, April 22, 2009
♥ 5:44 AM
Wednesday, 22 April 2009No hard feelings.
I woke up early today because i had to redo my text. I think my essay's OK. Miss Hani was saying something about this event at Changi Airport. At first she asked us to think of two to three sentences of anything we want to talk about, like a small report. So i did mine on Homosexual Females. Turns out, i was shortlisted along with a few other students. I knew that Jasmine would get picked. And Ravi also got picked. That makes two Indians. She made us stand in front of the class and think of two questions to ask the director. I thought that the type of question i asked would get me qualified or something but she actually wanted to see how we presented ourselves. I stammered and all but she kept me there. Miss Hani was like struggling between Maria, Nurul, Vanjill and Me. She let me go because she already picked Jasmine and Ravi and also another Indian, she said she wanted to give the others a chance but she liked me. I could join the workshop if i wanted, she said and i really wanted to be in this workshop for experience and built my confidence because that's what i really lack. So tomorrow morning i shall join them. ECONOMICS TEST is tomorrow as well. I have not properly studied for it so, i off to stuhdeyyyyy......
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
♥ 7:58 PM
I see you
And I'm waiting to make my move
But I'm scared
And I know that you got
Better things to do
I'll touch your hand
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
It's cliche I know
But baby it's the price we pay
To get the things we've wanted
To get the things we've left behind
It's what you've wanted
What you needed
What you've always dreamt about
Don't take another step
And don't breathe another breath
Unless you're coming back to me
I'm trusting you
And I'm taking the long way home
I'm leaving
And it's not because of you
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole things wrong
But baby, we're invincible
If I could take these words
And fill them up with air
I'd fly you to the stars
So we can disappear
If I could take your heart
And keep it close to me
I swear it will not break
I swear it will not bleed
And IBelieve
Just anything you say
If you would tell me to get lost
I'd ask "how far away?"
And now it's getting late
And I can't keep my eyes open
But my hearts open for you
I'm trusting you
And I'm taking the long way home
I'm leaving
It's not because of you
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole things wrong
But baby, we're invincible
Will you just hold me tight
And never let me go?
I know this whole things wrong
But baby, we're invincible
Friday, April 17, 2009
♥ 10:32 PM
Friday, 17th April 2009For the first time.
OMG la, Jasmine and me tried taking a puff today, it was purely experimental, nothing more, i swear! Jasmine was coughing after the puff, haha. It didn't really feel like anything to me, maybe because i didn't take it in all the way. Honestly, it felt really crappy, like burnt paper in your mouth. How do people stand it? I didn't like the after taste. HORRIBLE i tell you. I told bell, she was like very upset and disappointed in me. I'm a bit bummed that i didn't try it with Elize. Oh well, i can't take back what i did. Try everything once, at least.
♥ 10:24 PM
Thursday, 16th April 2009TAROT
Farah read Tarot cards for me, it said that i do things quickly, i always leave people in suspense, i do manual things, i am a seducer ( i know right??, like how can i be a seducer?? ), i am mature for my age, i will depart somewhere, i am going to have a companion, i am going to be an entrepreneur in the future and i will have victory and power. Jasmine says that its very spot on, i don't quite believe in all this but i just tried it for fun. A few of the girls did the reading as well, i think maybe Jappy's one was quite spot on.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
♥ 5:57 AM
Wednesday, 15th April 2009Haven't started with the studying!Almost a week has passed and i have not started with any studying! I don't know why i am procrastinating. Maybe because of the recent distractions. Guy stuff and all. I know that if i don't study, I'm definitely going to flunk economics and advertising, that's for sure. Oh Bianca! Get your priorities straight and stop getting distracted!! So anyways, school has been dreary, Boring modules and all. I have to admit that i have not been listening in class. I think that people in class don't really like miss hani but i think she's alright. She just like's to talk alot about herself but i find her class very interesting. I went home with Jasmine today and had a very intense talk. I enjoyed it though, nice to hear a different persons point of view. Thanks for helping me babe(:Never had these kinds of attention before, it scares me. Why all of a sudden? I just want to be invisible. When i desperately want care and love, it doesn't show itself but just when i am having the time of my life, loving myself, they come running. And then, i'm torn. What should i do? Say yes? Break your heart? As sweet as you may seem, it's just what one would say to win someone over. Do you really mean what you say? Do you really think you love me? You don't know how much i control myself, i just want to hold you. But i'm going to fight myself to see how true all this will be. Give it time.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ 8:39 AM
Sunday, 12th April 2009Family day out.
Papa has a new car, i love the gadgets in it. It's fully Japanese. The whole family went to Thompson to have lunch at Casuarina's. I had Murtabak! All by myself! Don't play play ok!
Nothing left on my plate!
After that we went along the Devil's Bend to Pierce Reservoir. There were so many monkey's on the roads. Monkey's were scratching their things! hahas! Pierce Reservoir is such a beautiful place to be.
The place felt very surreal to me. Peaceful and really nice. I'd love to go there again. After that, Mummy wanted to go to Widjaja, some furniture shop. We got lost in the end! driving around Kranji for God knows how long! Argh damn, tomorrow it's back to school again and Jappy wants to go early so we can discuss the project. Oh well, I'm off to bed. Let me fall asleep in peace!
♥ 6:53 AM
Saturday, 11th April 2009
Pulau Ubin
Woke up really early. Got ready to meet the guys at Cityhall MRT. I reached there at around 9.15? And i waited till 10 plus?? And they still haven't arrived. Thankfully, i saw Zhi Sian and he told me he has been waiting since 9am. Karma's a real bitch. Anyways, we boarded the train that they were coming from and train-ed to Tanah Merah. We took bus 2 to Changi bus interchange and had our lunch before we headed to Ubin. Aloy also came along, surprisingly. Oh yah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALOY! We ferry-ed over to Ubin.
From inside the ferry.We rented 7 bicycles for seven of us, that is to say, Qi yun, David, Naka, Jacob, Aloy, Zhi Sian and me. Jacob didn't really know how to ride a bicycle so he was having lessons from Qi yun. I must say that he is a fast learner but i was very afraid to be behind him or in front of him. We were slow at first and made alot of pit stops. The first was at this Chinese old man's house. He claims that he sells herbs that cures cancer and Aloy wants to get them for his granny. We all bought drinks from the old man then we cycled to this park look alike. It had a really nice scenery.
We all look tired and sweaty.
We also went up to the tower in Chek Jawa. I felt like a smoker, i couldn't even ride up the slopes that much. It began to rain soon after, and we were back to the main part of the island. The few of them bought ponchos so that we could cycle in the rain.
odd one out.When we were cycling in the rain, we looked like fat sumo's from the back. We only cycled for a while. My favourite part was going down the slopes. The thrill of it! I think it was around 5 or 6 plus that we finally left the island.
Our way back to main land.
Can you see Naka?
I LOVE PULAU UBIN!
♥ 6:29 AM
Friday, 10th April 2009Good Friday
Bell and I followed Atteh and uncle Joshua to Church today. It has been a long time since i went back to that church. I saw lotsa familiar faces, some of them whom i played with as a child, now we don't even look at each other. The showed the video of how Jesus suffered and got crucified. That made me cry, just thinking how he suffered for the world, hmm. After church went to meet Jappy and Ruben. We had lunch at WestMall then went to Jurong Point to Catch Fast and Furious 4. The movie fast paced and i didn't quite liked the fact that Letty ( Michelle Rodriguez ) died. VIN DIESEL is HOT.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
♥ 6:31 AM
Sunday, 5th April 2009
Lighter it seems.
Bell came over to Patti's house to take the camera and then she went to meet Tara. Atteh and Uncle Joshua came over later on. Helped Patti cook the Mee Goreng. It was good but i still did not have any appetite to eat so i sneaked and put the noodles on Atteh's plate, Haha. Uncle Joshua shared some word and prayed. It felt really good. I think i should go back to church. I feel really shit about things. I am so very distant from God these days. I mean he's the one that has been protecting me, given me a place in school and i haven't been grateful. Been shooting my mouth off with vulgarities, haven't been praying, acting like he doesn't exist. When Uncle Joshua was praying for me, God spoke through him, he said that he loves me, he brought me to this world for a purpose and he will do great things for me but i have to seek him, If i walk with him, i will not walk in darkness. I just felt so good. After the prayer, I cried and cried and I felt released. I really want to go back to God again, i know he is real but i ignore him. He has done wonders in my life but i have pushed him away. I really want to start afresh with Jesus.
Saturday, 4th April 2009
Not drunk.
We talked alot. Watched the Monster in law and DRANK but we didn't get that drunk like the last time OK! Had Malibu, Moscato and shots of Whiskey. Just needed to unwind ourselves. We stayed up till 5.30 talking. Woke up at 12? Then we went to Tiong Bahru to have breakfast/lunch. Elize headed to town and i went to Patti's house. Tata was sleeping as usual so i had the Television all to myself. I watched Disney channel, Cadet Kelly, when Hillary Duff was young and innocent looking. Tata kept forcing me to eat. I didn't have the appetite to eat, i think it was the drinks or something. I forced myself to eat anyways.
Friday, 3rd April 20091, 2, 3, 4 I 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID. The whole time i was talking to you online, i forgot to wish you till later.
Woke up early but ended up meeting Bella late. She told me that she cut her hair real short yesterday, came out of the bus and i got a SHOCK! She looked like a little innocent girl. Figured that the guys would be late at Westcoast so we went to have lunch at Dover market. The chicken rice turned out exceptionally nice. Went up to Johnson's house, he was shocked to see us. He was prissy that we came suddenly because he haven't prepared himself, HAHA, he is always the same. Johnson lied to me! He said his hamster does not bite, when i was playing with it, it licked me for awhile then it BIT ME! Met Damia downstairs and Qi Hui came on the bus. We went to Westcoast together. They bought Nasi Lemak before we went to the park. Poor David Ong, the rest of the guys left him at the pit while they went to David Gan's house to take the rest of the things. Played volleyball while waiting and i sucked at it. We took quite awhile to start the fire, no actually a really long while. I was surprised to see a few of them especially Kok Loong. Had a really good time. The food, the pictures, all of them that came, it was really good. I don't think David saw the cake coming. Hope you were surprised and had a good time. Smashed cake on David and we smelt like VOMIT!! So sick. Stayed at Westcoast till pretty late. The guys were going to have their own sleep over at David's house and Elize and me had our own sleep over at her place.
surprised to see muzzy
trifecta of races.
Naka!
Cliffy!
Dhuvad.
So unglam luh.
Don't ask.
No hard feelings.
Qi yun the man.
We smelt of puke after that.
He is having fun AH!
