Soori :)

Sorry that i haven't been filling in.
Prolly just lazy.
But let me fill you in now,

Last Saturday.

So last Saturday Grace's B'Day.
I thought i could not go so i lied to her and said that i was busy.
Later her dad called me and said he wanted me to come and he would talk To my dinosaur of a dad. I could go in the end.
Arrived fashionably late as usual.
Grace looked so glamorous. Vintage looking. Blue.
Saw my not so close cousins. Jason looked at me all weird and said Something i didn't catch. Even though Grace and my other friends Don't meet often, i know we still love each other. No matter where we left Off, we can still go back to how things were. I know i can always go back.
That's what i love about them. I miss the incesant chatter, the gossip and The bitching, the pakat-ness.

The rest of the week.

The rest of last week was the week i had the obsession for volleyball.
Playing and playing until my hands were sore and every morning when i Woke up, my whole body would be cramping. It supposed to hurt but i feel Good. I know im crazy but everytime i hit the ball, I hit it with all i've got. All the anger, sadness, the mixed feelings all released. I just need to play.
I guess i'll have to get my own ball soon. God! That fool is getting on my Nerves. Im happy that bella is finally hanging out with us. Oh, i miss you So. Went to Tiong Bahru and just talked with them and eat.

Missery loves company right?

I bet you saw it. I tried to control it. I feel distant. I already lost the one Person i knew i could call and and talk too. She has her own friends now And just the thought of calling her would be weird even though we started Hanging out these past few days. I'm already slipping. Putting on a smile to Let them know i'm alright even though inside i'm hurting so much i can cry A monsoon. Everyday the futher we fall apart, the further my heart breaks To know that we will part and the future is not certain. Whenever we have Crushes or BF's or GF's, It's totally normal for us to over react a bit right?
As in they are the only ones that are in our minds and we do stuff that Normally has them involved. It's not the first i have had friends who grow
Apart because of their BF or GF or crushes. I'm not saying anything but This is how it normally is but i don't know why i feel hurt. I still love Them but there is always a rift whenever these things happen. And i know that you have been trying to tell me how you feel and you want this to work Out and i know i have not been saying anything. I have to say im sorry but It's just that i dont know what to say. I don't know how to go back to Normal. When you started to say those stuff, i started to cry over the Phone. It was true what you said. I just feel lonely. I have to take back
What i said. I really thought that we would all be really close by the time The year ends but seems like slowly, one by one, we start to slip away.
I miss you but i don't know how to react to this so i prefer to keep a safe a
Distance untill everything seems to be ok.