Rift

I am really sorry but it's just that i don't know how to talk like we used to.
I want to be like how we used to be.
Secretly, I wished you called me and talk like how we used to talk.
Remember when you told me that the two of you talk every night and i Told you that i felt jealous? That was true. It's like i have the feeling of Being replaced you know? But it's totally understandable but just give me Some time to go back to normal. I seriously think that it has been a long Time since we have had a proper one to one girly chat. I missed that. There's so many things i have not told you and you are the one person i am
Dying to tell. But when i have the urge to tell you, i feel not worthy to talk To you so i hold back. Now what we have is so fake and even you know it.
I miss you and love you so much but i don't know how to react to all this.

The rush with studying.

Yesterday has to be the first time i actually sat down and studied all the Way. I feel that i shouldn't have wasted my time all those days that im Suppose to study and now im feeling scared.

I suppose.

You called. I was shocked. Didn't expect you would but hey, im happy.
I think it's thanks to you. All this time i haven't said anything was because
Im used to it. Im sure you know how i am. But i am elated that we are Talking back to normal. Ohh, the power of the blog! Everything i had to Say, it say it here. I couldn't say it with my mouth to you because i was just Blocked out. I know you were pretty bummed out when i told you that i Didn't know what to say. All the emotions were rolling and i didn't know What to say. Sorry. But im glad i got to say some stuff. Maybe i didn't want To say anything because i had enough of all the butt kissery. Yippie!